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Random thought.

Fri, 12 Sep 2008 16:11:01 GMT

Yes, I'm supposed to be in class right now.

Yes, I'm skipping.

But I'm skipping for a good reason.

'Cause I'm doing a research.

So technically I'm not skipping, really.

Just out and away from the studio/classroom.

And now I'm bored from my research, plus I'm rather sleepy. Maybe I should just lie down on the couch a few feet away or something.

By the way.

Has anybody ever wondered how - suppose that it's possible - you would put "blah" in Romanji?

Like, how would it seem in a Japanese person's eyes?

"Blah"? "Bra"?

A bigger house.

Mon, 12 May 2008 03:32:43 GMT

That's why I've always hoped that we would one day move into a bigger house; then I would actually be able to find a sealed place where I could ignore you completely whenever you are being the imbeciles that you are to each other.

Sugoi!

Fri, 09 May 2008 00:56:19 GMT

Wow, I really haven't updated my Xanga for a long time, eh? Not that I've really been using LJ that much or anything - I mostly just rant about the most pointless things. But then again, I used to do that with Xanga even more I think, lol. Good old high school days? Nooooot! Ha ha ha. I hated that place. Well, kinda. It had its good portions I suppose.

I think I'll start using my Xanga again. I'll juggle both of my pointless blogs, ha ha, or maybe I'll just cross-post some things or something. But it's most likely that I'll be using pre-made layouts for Xanga from now on and spend my very unoriginal originality on my LJ layouts -w- Or...Something to that extend. Ha ha.

Despite the fact that I totally just suck - I mean suuuuuck - at cooking, I really wanna try this thing out. It looks good. Besides, you don't need a stove for it, tee hee x) Those things hate my guts, I swear.

Starbucks at home: Mocha Frappuccino

2 tablespoons water
1/2 tablespoon instant coffee
1 teaspoon sugar
20 ice cubes
1/2 cup fat-free half-and-half
2 tbsp chocolate syrup
1/3 cup fat-free whip cream

1. Microwave water and coffee in a mixing bowl for 1 min.
2. Stir in sugar until dissolved.
3. Add 6 ice cubes and allow to melt
4. Pour mixture, half-and-half, and syrup into a blender
5. Fill to 2 cup mark with ice
6. Blend for 30 sec.
7. Enjoy

Someone make it for me or something! Please? I'll eat it for you when you're done! <3

Boredom.

Wed, 30 Jan 2008 19:09:52 GMT

Honestly, I need to find something to do right now before I go insane. Like, yeah I'm so bored that I'm actually posting in my xanga even though I've started using LJ and xanga's now a place where I no longer really check anymore xD; (LOL I'm starting to feel like I'm betraying xanga since I'd ranted on it all throughout grade 12 - but that's probably why I'm not deleting the account -w-) Even though I kind of lack things to say on my LJ too, I think I'll be posting things like the graphics I've done and whatever crap I've made or something. I dunno, since art school's - although stressful - not as bad as high school where I had to learn even the things I hate, there's really nothing to rant about. And no ranting means no posts I guess? LOL. Ah, but I haven't seen a lot of my high school friends for such a long time that I can't really talk about them either. As for the new friends, well since college has a different system from high school, I kinda only see some people once a week and stuff. Like...Yeah. So even though there's "friends" that you talk to, they're kinda not really "friends" at the same time. Acquaintances? Yeah, something like that I guess.

Oh see, but now I'm definitely ranting since I haven't a thing to do for I'm waiting till it's time for me to go to my piano lesson. I guess I could always go to the Ceramics room to work on my vases, but I kinda don't wanna. It's like minus a kajillion degrees outside and I don't wanna freeze my hands after washing them. No sirree.

Wow, I'd give anything to be able to work on my essay for Art & Design Now since I'm on the computer anyways, but I don't have my stuff here; it's at home. I even wanna work on my drawing homework! But again the stupid sketchbook isn't here with me. Damn. And I kinda wanna just sit here and do nothing even though I'm bored to the core. -___-; How ironic. Maybe I'm just lazy. No not maybe. I am lazy. I guess.

Anyways, I'll go bugger someone on MSN I guess and waste my time.

The weather outside is frightful.

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 03:05:05 GMT

Wow, I've really discarded my Xanga for quite awhile - almost two months! LOL but I'm still alive and well - as well as school let's me that is. I've just been too busy with school and stuff that's all. Eh, and I realized that I've spent quite a lot of time of my evenings on KS too. owo; Ha ha, it's just addictive to me I guess.

-w- It's just so freaking cold now - winter's really here. Damn.

And seriously, for once I'm actually not that looking forward to the Christmas holidays. I'm just not used to having to work so intensely for school I guess.

LOL being the slacker that I was in high school, I'm just incapable of balancing my time out for all the projects I have from every single God damn subject! Ho ho ho, I can so totally manage my time well - so well that I wanna stab my ugly artworks - especially the ones for Sculpture. Wow, they look absolutely gorgeous in trash cans! <3

So what am I doing sitting around and typing on my haven't-been-used-for-such-a-long-time blog you ask? Meh, I just don't wanna prepare for my essays, nor do I wanna write my soon to be due essays. Tee hee~!

> >;

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I'd wanted to make a nice long rant - one that I haven't had for quite awhile - last Saturday after getting home 'cause Dad kicked me out of the car. But nah, it's okay, the idiot's not worth my time and attention. *smirk*

But really, Mom was saying that I was the one at fault - but I wonder, if he was being a bastard, then why couldn't I be a bitch? Pffft! Just 'cause he helped in the process of giving birth to me doesn't mean that I can't treat him like how I treat everyone else. Dude, talk about having traditional parents. - -" So close-minded they are!

Oh, and speaking of close-minded.

There was this lady in my Sculpture class who totally broke down during our First Year Sculpture Show on Wednesday 'cause she'd wanted her project - which was a piece of ~~shit~~ cake - in the dead centre of the display room.

And she wouldn't freaking let everyone else touch it even when all we'd wanted to do was to move it a little - I mean, yeah, everyone wants their stuff to be the centre of attention, but hers was just way too tall so it'd be like, if you walk into the room, all you see is her crap.

She and Megan got so pissed at each other that Megan actually started cussing. LOL I stayed quiet through it 'cause I was trying hard not to laugh - it was entertaining, which made me feel a little guilty about it afterwards.

The lady even started saying how we're just telling her to move her stuff 'cause we were jealous. Like hell, we were so totally jealous that we'd wanted to throw her out of the window -_- Keh.

Talk about close-minded old hags.

What's with old people these days?!

Nihonjin ja nai!

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 14:47:23 GMT

Went to Banff with my parents for the entire day yesterday - we haven't gone there for almost two years, so it was pretty fun <3

LOL, I've always liked looking at tuorists from other places, even though we were kind of tuorists too considering we don't live in Banff, but the tuorists from other places were fun to look at. Especially those that don't know English at all - sometimes I do think that that's what I'll probably be like if I really do get to go study abroad in Italy someday. Ha ha.

But seriously - how do people expect to ask for directions and stuff when they don't even know English, the international language?!

I was lining up before a washroom at one point, and some middle-aged Japanese guy just randomly came up to me and gave me a string of questions in Japanese; the only thing I could make out was the "desu ka?" at the end. -w-;

He was so rude too, 'cause he just opened up the door and peeked inside when the person before me came out, and when he realized that I'm not Japanese nor could I understand him fully (I was all, "Uhm, sorry - could you try speaking English...? owO" But right after the incident, I realized that I could've said "Sumimasen, watashi wa Nihonjin ja nai.", even though the grammar might not be right necessarily, but he probably could've understood me better that way..), he just walked away without a word!

His companions were no better - the two ladies were even speaking Japanese to people who didn't even look Asian! LOL, like WTH?! But I could actually understand them since all they kept on saying was "Sumimasennnn, sumimaseeennnn"; probably wanted the people to move aside so they could take pictures. -___,-

Sometimes I do wonder though - do they really teach English in Asian countries?! 'Cause when we went to Vancouver during the summer several years ago, we also went to this man-made forest place (I can't remember the name of it..) and there was a suspension bridge near the entrance where people would have to cross to get to the other side, and there's this bunch of Japanese university students who just kept on blocking everyone 'cause they needed to take pictures!

My Mom was freaking out that time since she's terrified of suspension bridges, and those university kids wouldn't even look at how troublesome their little actions were for other people (There was a huuuuge line up behind us, and all of us tuorists were waiting for them to shove their asses out of the way)! Eventually I lost patience - like I always do - and I just shoved one guy before me (I was the first one in line) out of my way and told him off, "Excuse me, but there's people who need to cross this bridge."

LOL, I totally snickered when I heard some woman behind me saying to them sarcastically, "Thank youuu!?" And the university kids didn't even understand what I was saying - 'cause before this, they were always blocking people because of their must-take-photos-obsessions, and when I asked them to move so other people could see the plants, they didn't understand me. At all. -___-

And there was this huge group of people from Mainland China - who were probably on business trips 'cause they were wearing suits - who were just so noisy that everyone else was casting sideway glances at them and frowning, and they couldn't understand the meaning of the looks either, and were all like (In Chinese, I could hardly make out what they were saying but I understood a little), "Why're they looking at uuus? People should just mind their own business~"

Heh, sometimes I don't like Asians. (Yes, I'm perfectly aware that I'm discriminating against myself too. xD)

But anyways, yeah, yesterday's trip was pretty fun - our family's not into turkeys, so we didn't have any for Thanksgiving, but the trip itself made up for it even though I'd been sleepy the whole entire time. -w-

Oh I am forEVER thankful - NOT!

Sat, 06 Oct 2007 03:44:27 GMT

@#&*$()#&*$(#*&...As much as it is interesting to be learning about the history of art, I really couldn't care less about how the whole idea of plagiarism needs to understood because heck do I already understand it - that's what the teachers always stuff in your ears over and over again in the beginning of every single God damn school year! And you know what?! I don't wanna write a friggin' three paged essay on what plagiarism is, what paraphrasing is and I most certainly do not care about whether I get an F for the course or not because of how horribly written my essay is going to be!

...

Okay, actually I do care about it - I'd like to at least get a B as much as I know how it's extremely difficult, but hell, Christine can just go rub her little library of knowledge on the Egyptians and the Greeks against the wall.

Hmph -____-

For some reason it just isn't tiring for me to be hating a gazillion people all at once - Victor's totally right about how I probably hate everyone around me >_>; - because today there was this stooooopid girl who kept on arguing with me about whether Taiwan's boring or not!

Well, hell, I don't care about whether you've stayed there for over 10 years, and I don't care about whether you've gotten your pesky - not to mention absolutely God damn UGLY - little face through all the malls around the friggin' train station, or how you've been to 101 for like, a kajillian times because you lack a cursed social life! You're 19?! Well, you don't say - you act so absolutely childish that I would have mistaken you as a 4 year old if you didn't tell me your age! *rolls eyes*

I was talking about my trip to Taiwan and how it was boring for me - it had nothing to do with you, woman! If you really are that desparate in jumping into a conversation between me and Victor, then seriously - even my five year old niece can probably do a better job then you - try to find a more creative way?! Don't just randomly go, "WHHHAAAT?! Have you ever gone to alllllll the malls around the train station?! Have you gone to 101?! Have you gone-..." God! There's only the first four floors in 101 that're shopping malls, the rest of the building - with the useless extra 97 floors - belong to some huge ass snobbish company that I can care less about! Why the hell would I - like you - want to go there a kajillian times?!

And by any means, my trip had nothing to do with you! It was my opinion, and you did not go on the trip with me! Capiche?! God, I wouldn't get this angry if she just told me that Taiwan isn't boring, but noooOOOOooo, she just had to put on an argument with me on how not boring the country is when that clearly wasn't even the point either - I never said that Taiwan was boring, all I said was that my trip to Taiwan was boring! Some people really need to learn how to listen. Seriously, I was so frustrated from Drawing class today that I almost lost my temper when we had the argument and I was right on the edge of telling her to shut her mouth. -___-

Oh, and last thing - it's stupid how she always uses that pretend-cute voice of hers to say the most pointless things ever. I'm okay with people being random 'cause I am too (LOL, I probably scarred Victor for life today when I showed him how to do the Fart Exercise from Nodame Cantabile. xD), but saying pointless things that she always says is just-...I can't stand it; how do you expect people to reply to you when your sentences don't even mean much?! Seriously, grab a book and educate yourself on the means of socializing! Your way of conversing just makes people sweat drop and go "dot, dot, dot".

And back to what I was saying about acting cute - God, she's not even cute looking! She looks as if she was halfway through 30 - just the way her features are I guess, that you can't really blame her 'cause it's not her fault, but seriously woman. Don't. Act. Cute. It's disgusting when you talk in that voice and in that immature fashion - I mean, I'm immature too, but I don't talk like that; unless I was in a voice acting mood of course, that's a different story.

...LOL, I even asked her if she thought I was mean today 'cause Victor kept on saying that I am when I made comments about certain things that were going on in the classroom, and guess what, she said that I'm mean "at times". Well, you know what? That's good - very good - I'm glad that you think that I'm mean because I don't wanna put up another pointless fight with you - I have better things to waste my time on. <3

........

*silence*

Demo saa...*shifty eyes*

Am I really that mean?! Owo;

I guess I'm just really annoyed by the fact that all my projects are piling up so I can't even enjoy a rare long weekend like this one. It sucks. I can't wait for Chirstmas to come, 'cause I seriously need to have a long rest where I just sit there and do things other than art; I'm starting to wonder whether I'd be able to finish art school. xD

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Edit:

Dad was being the son of a bitch that he is. Oh joy, how I look forward to spending some quality family time with him during this breakless Thanksgiving Holiday! Yup, yup, that's exactly what one can ever ask for - I am just sooooo thankful for this; really, you have no idea!

*goes off with a knife, rope, bag, and chisel to find her victim of the day*

Cutenews isn't so cute.

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 00:47:03 GMT

Because I don't get it.

Cutenews probably doesn't like me, 'cause ever since I first tried - with absolutely pathetic attempts - to understand how to use it for the personal site that I have (Which is still on hiatus and has been since last June...), I couldn't understand it, although everyone kept on saying how it's user friendly.

Pffffft, user friendly my arse! T___T;

Or maybe I'm just a bit too slow when it comes to PHP things - I'm more used to HTML codes after all.

So anyways - I'm trying to understand Cutenews (Damn, I kept on typing "cuteness" for some reason!) again, because I have a sudden urge of playing around with a graphic site. I've been wanting a graphic site for years!

Although I know that I'm not all that great when it comes to Photoshop, but since I've been getting pretty friendly and encouraging comments and feedbacks ever since I started posting some of my graphics around some forums, well, I thought that I'd like to have a portfolio that contains the best works that I have - or at least, I hope that they'd be my best ones~!

And other than graphics, I kind of want to have a section where I get to rate the dramas that I've seen and some of the manga (series, although I like many one shots too, but those would be kind of pointless to write about.) that I've read. I already have an idea as to what the upcoming layout is going to be - all the layouts would pretty much revolve around the traits that I have, and the first one is gonna be...

Egotistic.

Dun dun duuuunnnnn! xD

Yeah, yeah, I'm an egotistic person, I know, but that's only at times, so I guess that's one good thing about it. As for whom this layout's going to feature - of course, it'd be no other than Tamaki Hiroshi - well actually, Tamaki Hiroshi in the drama Nodame Cantabile, so I guess it's more like Chiaki Shinichi, lol. Even though I don't have a plan yet, but I have the basic image of it in my head already, so hopefully it's not gonna be all that hard to make. <3

And speaking of Tamaki Hiroshi - I'm going to go and watch a movie of his on CrunchyRoll now - it's called Tada, Kimi wo Aishiteru (Known as Heavenly Forest internationally). LOL, I'm just interested in seeing how Tamaki-kun's acting was before, because he really showed off his talent lots in Nodame Cantabile, since his own personality was far from Chiaki. >w<

Last but not least - it's time for a random shoutout that I haven't had for a long time:

Is anyone able/willing to teach me how to set up Cutenews or could possibly help me find a thorough tutorial (since I'm so hopelessly stupid with a capital S) on it?! Pretty please!?

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Edit:

Well, I finished watching Tada, Kimi wo Aishiteru. I have to say, it wasn't as good as I'd expected - I only watched it 'cause Shifu told me that Uehara Misa's in it too - I thought she did a fairly good job with her roles of Saiko (Chiaki's ex-girlfriend) from Nodame Cantabile as well as Hirota from Attention Please, that's why I chose to watch this movie just to see how she pulled it off along with Tamaki-kun - it turned out that she only got a really minor role though, so bleh.

But back to what I was saying - the movie was pretty disappointing. It's like one of those really old and typical shoujo manga, the storyline's so boring that I didn't think I'd be able to finish it! Tamaki-kun's character - Makoto - was really timid and shy, but the way he approached Shizuru (Played by Miyazaki Aoi) was just-...I don't know, it's really obvious, okay? One of those "I like her but I don't realize it" plot lines, with Makoto - at first - thinking that he liked this other girl in his class, etc., etc. Definitely a big yawn. Not exactly one of those movies that would move people to tears that's for sure - well, unless it was someone who would cry over anything that was watching it, then that'd be another story >___>;

The only thing I find interesting about it is probably the fact that Makoto likes Photography - for some reason I seem to run into a lot of Photography related subjects ever since I started taking that class, lol.

...Geh, I should watch something else of Tamaki-kun's, 'cause this one was a huge mess, seriously. Oh, and I'd also like to start on Nobuta wo Produce - Yamapi! <3 Fu fu fu, and Homaki too! She was fairly acceptable as Mizuki when she did Hana Kimi, so we'll see how Nobuta turns out - although I'd heard that it's a pretty good series a lot of times already. ^w^

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Edit - again:

http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=50339

I'd heard a lot about the SMAP episode featuring Tamaki-kun and Jurippe, so I thought that I'd watch it as well. Seriously, Tamaki-kun's personality is so Nodame! ROFL, it really made me laugh how he just kept on stuffing his mouth that way - and how one of the cooks was like, "Did you really play Chiaki-senpai?" Ha ha ha ha.

Jurippe's personality - on the other hand - is more mature, although she has her ditzy Nodame moments too, like that episdoe where the two of them went on 笑っていいとも (Waratte Iitomo). LOL. But seriously, Tamaki-kun...How did he open his mouth so wide?! I mean, is that even humanly possible?! xD?! And how at near the end, when Jurippe was still eating, Tamaki-kun just randomly got up and started walking away as if he was ready to leave the restaurant. LOL!

Oh, and one last thing - it's great seeing actors eating so much - I hate how some actors would try to look refined and take only one bite; Tamaki-kun and Jurippe definitely ate like normal humans, and that really raised their images in my mind by a lot <3

A nice kind of pressure.

Wed, 19 Sep 2007 03:59:49 GMT

Having art-related homework everyday is tiring, of course, but I actually kind of liked it. <3 It's a pleasant kind of pressure.

I can't believe that I'm saying this, but I - surprisingly - am really enjoying the Art History classes. I heard that my instructor is the hardest one there is out of all three, but with her, you actually get to learn something although she her marking's kind of blah. -w-;

But really - who would have thought that Sumerians, Akkadians, Assurians, Naramsin, Hammurabi, etc. were all so interesting!

And there's also Humanities - I really liked the psyochological theories that we discussed about, and Plato and Socrates were so fun to learn about too! (LOL, Socrates - Kaurin, I just read your Proposal Daisakusen entry, so the name "Socrates" kinda made me laugh - you know why, right? xD)

The subject that I'm having the most trouble with right now is probably Photography - for some reason I don't seem to understand a lot like everyone else, and there's already a project due next week (Although there's all these other writing/reading things we have to do for Art History/Hummanities too, and there's the Sculpture class project, as well as the mechanism drawing for Drawing class..), but I don't even have one single clue as to what I want to take pictures of!

The instructor started talking about something along the lines of "How would you film something that's not before your eyes?" - I mean, that's so abstract! How should I know how to film something like that?! Technically, if I was taking pictures of the front of a mailbox then yes that's before my eyes, but if I was to take pictures of the back of the mailbox then it's still before my eyes! Gah, what the heck?! O_o;

Sculpture class tomrrow...I'd better finish reading over my Art History notes so I can go to bed. But there's still so much homework leeeft! *flops over and twitches* I should really start concentrating more on my school work now. -_-"

Oh, by the way! A lady phoned my house today and asked if I was teaching piano 'cause her son'd like to learn it! I kinda can't teach him though 'cause I have classes everyday except for Tuesdays - but they'd like to come on either Wednesdays or Thursdays...

Oh well, she said she'll see what she can do about their schedule and will phone me if things turned out good. Or somethin' like that. Gah, I need students so badly! Art school's just too expensive, darn it! And Sahil isn't coming anymore 'cause he can only come on Fridays, but I have classes till 5:00 PM on that day...

TwT; I hope I won't become a poor starving artist someday.

Get back here!

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 03:07:05 GMT

I'll use the Suzumiya Haruhi character names here for the people that I'm gonna talk about - with the exception of Nagato Yuki, because our "Yuki" isn't apart of this and she knows nothing about this situation. So we have Itsuki, Kyon, Mikuru, and me, who's supposedly "Haruhi", according to "Itsuki".

This little Suzumiya Haruhi thing has been our little made-up fun ever since I met Itsuki, but now this little fun isn't so "fun" anymore.

He said that it was because of me that he's developed feelings for Kyon, but really, if it wasn't because of the fact that he might have already liked him before, then it wouldn't have mattered when I joked around and said how cute "Itsuki x Kyon" is, right?

He's now flippin' said goodbye to not only Kyon, but to me as well, and maybe Mikuru (Of whom he believes is Kyon's "special someone") too, we don't know. He thanked me for "everything" as well, and he even went to the KS RPG board and told us that he's quitting. And that sounded very suicidal to all those who know about the situation, so it's not just me.

Seriously, WTF?! Why's he doing something so stupid?! I know that I do things on impulse, but even I don't - maybe it's because I don't have the guts to - deal with these sorts of things this way! Suicide is the dumbest thing one can ever do. Just because Kyon doesn't effing return the feeling doesn't mean that you have to effing shit on your own life and end it like that.

We don't know for sure if that's what's going on, but since he's blocked us on MSN and isn't answering his cell (We don't know his home phone), the only thing I can do now is to leave a message on his Facebook. But Vicki may be right about pushing him too much - if we kept on phoning (If Kyon kept on phoning actually) then he might end up not talking to any of us anymore.

Kyon didn't even know about this feeling of his till today when Itsuki all of a sudden gave him a note saying goodbye to him. Why wasn't I more thoughtful about this when Itsuki text'ed me and told me this?! Why didn't I think more about how this "goodbye" could really mean "goodbye"?

But I don't want to say goodbye, not yet! Itsuki, haven't you always called me your "Danjo-sama"?! Well, as your brigade leader, I command you to come back. If you ever valued our friendship - the friendship between you and me, the (although short) friendship between you and Mikuru, the friendship between you and Kyon! Think of how this would do to our "SOS Brigade"?! We're a team, aren't we?!

God damn it, I hate you.

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Edit:

Fine, he's still alive. But now I wish that he really did kill himself and was half way to Hell. That's how mad I am right now - so he's going to sacrifice the friendship he had with me so he could "start anew" just because I'm friends with Kyon too?! I hate you, Itsuki - you don't know how much I hate you right now; yes, I hate you so much at the moment that I'd give anything to have my hands around your neck and strangle you unconscious. I don't care anymore - you're too weak, too vulnerable, and too pathetic for me to care about because you don't want my help anyways, so why the hell should I keep on worrying? Fuck you for making me waste the entire last night trying to get ahold of you and know if you were okay. Why didn't you kill yourself like how you made it sound, huh? It would've done the me right now a great favour too.

...But if you ever want to start our friendship all over again, I'm more than willing to give you a second chance.